ME WANT TO BARF!
but it's all good. i'm going a date tonight! :]

so a lot has happened since the last time i posted something.
dereck broke up with me, but we might get back together? idk.
i got a raise at work. free health insurance. w00t.
i got my tattoo touched up. my foot is killing me right now!
even though things aren't quite the way i want them, i'm happy!
erin stayed the night last night and she's staying the night again.
i love spending time with her! :)

absolutely nothing was wrong. well, something was, but not what i thought.
dereck's dad either had a heart attack or a mild stroke. so please pray for the jarvis family!
i went to see dereck tonight. we had some fun. i really do love him and i'm so happy with the way things are!
sometimes i get a little upset over minor things, but i think with time that will pass.
he's the love of my life and i'm not going to let him go this time.

impatience is a disease, it's one i posess. i hate it more than anything.
i start thinking the worst things if i don't hear back from someone in a short period of time.
absolutely nothing is wrong. i just start freaking out. i'm trying so hard not to.
i'm in a good, healthy relationship with someone i love very much. i don't need to do this to myself again.

My weekend was nothing less than amazing.
Friday Dereck came over and we had a three hour long talk about what we want/don't want in a relationship, etc. It was a much needed talk. I had a lot of fun. 
Saturday I worked half a day because of Erin's graduation. I went to pick up Jordan then drove to Huntsville. We made it just in time! After she walked across the stage we were pretty bored. Then we went to her grandparents' house to eat, where her grandma said I was self-mutilating my body because I have piercings/tattoos. Well, she has her ears pieced. Isn't that the same thing? I really dislike close minded people. They pretty much disgust me. Erin ended up getting her monroe pierced that night! And I stayed the night there.
Sunday I went to Dereck's house. His brother Daniel, Daniel's girlfriend Jessica, Dereck and I decided to go to Galveston for the day. We had a lot of fun. I was pretty exhausted and ready for a shower by the time we left. I got a little sunburnt, but not too much. I will probably put pictures up soon!
If you don't know the story behind Dereck and I, here it is as short as possible. We were talking for about four months last year and I guess it never worked out then. Recently he told me that he was in love with me and had been for a very long time. I told him I felt the same way. So we decided to give things another try. Well, as of Sunday night we are offically together! It's like a dream come true!
Monday we just hung out at his house with his family. I kind of needed a day to relax after two days of non-stop going and doing.
Well now it's 5 AM and I have to get up at 7 AM for work. I can't sleep! I miss him a lot, among other things! I'm going to be such a mess tomorrow at work.

The good news is today is the day I get to see someone I love/miss very much and I haven't seen them in 6+ months. I've been waiting for this day for so long. And it's finally here!
Well, for the bad news.. I'm having to pass blood clots. It's definetly not fun. This illness needs to go away. Only a week to 3 weeks to go. I've had to miss a day and a half of work because of this so far. That doesn't sound too bad, but when you are supporting yourself on your own, it really is.
On top of missing work because of this, I have to go to two graduation's in a week's time and I have to leave work early because of them. Of course they both would happen to fall on the same check. Plus I have to use up a lot of gas. I love these girls who are graduating, but I hate losing money. Live with your parents for as long as you can!

i'm probably the most impatient person in the world. i think i just might have a little too much free time.
there are several things i could be doing right now like working out, taking a walk, taking pictures, etc.
but i'm not doing any of those things, obviously. i'm sitting in front of the computer watching scrubs!
i love scrubs, but i'm being a huge bum.
i wish he would text or call me back. i have no need to worry. he promised me that.
this weekend is going to pretty amazing. i'm excited about that. erin's graduation is saturday!
and i will be spending a lot of time with dereck! that's probably the best part.
back to being a bum, i guess.

I'm pretty happy that things are slowly getting better. It puts my mind at ease.
I was so tired of not knowing what was going on. Clarification is good!
That's all for now. By Friday things will be even better!